Mixed Up

We never have to worry or fear. God's Word says so. It's been confirmed that its true. But we do it anyway, as a human default. Especially, when we're tired or when life is challenging and chaotic. Which is a lot of the time.

We don't have to feel guilt and condemnation. God's Word says this too. But we do feel these things because we want everything to be good for the ones we love and because we don't want to let anyone down.

People Pleasers are equal parts caring and a little bit fake, because when this is your strength, tendencies to feel bitterness or invisible grows stronger at each fail. So we spin our wheels or run around like senseless chickens trying to dig our way out of bad situations or to fix things beyond our control. 

The only true thing we can do for the glory of God in our every day lives is to stop the habits of being busy, occupied, and stressed. And determine to spend Every Single Morning with the Word of God. (Coffee helps). And All Day Abiding in the Vine.

And then a whole lot of Waiting and Surrendering and being constant in Prayer and Thanksgiving becomes the things that are The Most Important. 

We are finding and learning this in our daily routines as we go through the boat, ripping the old out and attempting to make it new again, we get fearful and doubtful...are we doing the right thing? Will we ever get it done? So many of our own questions!

Answering your questions about our plans...We don't know...we just don't know. And we really can't think that way. It's impossible to say what our plan is in two years from now. Does anyone know? So we just do the day in front of us and try to have joy in doing it.

There are so many piles around the house, boat parts, garage sale items, things for storage...messy house, messy mind for me...not easy. Without my habit of spending time with Jesus in the Word I would be UNDONE. 

I was cleaning a house last week when we got word of our friends daughter dying on a hike on a vacation with her family in Grenada. I couldn't finish the house cleaning job. My brain shut down with grief for them. I went home to hug my daughter and grand daughter who was visiting. 

Cleaning jobs, plans for the future, thoughts, opinions and decisions all fade when the kingdom of heaven comes to earth in loving and comforting and holding. We really can't fix anything but we can pray for each other and be there with them in it. 

Loss and grief has a way of putting life and living and plans into proper perspectives. We all felt that this week.

I keep coming back to this same proverbial tree as if I am lost in the woods...never be too busy, chaotic, and distracted to spend time in the Word. Its everything as our world falls apart. Its the Only Thing as our world falls apart.