You Go On

 

Good Morning, 

I'm hoping this will be short. We'll see. 

How was your 4th of July? I was given the sweet gift of quiet and alone on the fourth and it revived my soul. I worry about that sometimes but mostly I just enjoy it. I love my people, but I also love the quiet and thoughts and sorting and giving over to God.

It's true, the tendency to over think and become too reflective is there, but also is the habit of talking out loud to God with no one around to witness it and my pouring over my Bible like digging for treasure. It's not like I'm pious or spiritual or that I'm trying to be holy so I can write down pretty words to sound good.

It's more like like life blood. I need it to survive the blasts of living. My heart still aches with pain and suffering from the way the great big world turns to relationship losses I have personally experienced. I need Jesus time to survive what the heart cannot explain or the brain can comprehend.

I fall back on the sweet sweet grace of Jesus, the truth that God's ways are higher than my ways, His thoughts are far above and beyond what I see or know. I cling to trusting this. 

I am reading about David's life and found a verse that defines what what one does to survive and thrive. I'll share it in a minute but first let me remind you that David ran for his life until he was thirty. On every turn someone was hunting him down and questioning his character.

The verse: And David went on, and grew great, and the Lord God of Hosts was with him. 2 Sam 5:10 KJV. It's that simple. You go on. You keep after loving God. So what if you loved someone too deeply or was too open and honest...God sees and knows the state of your heart; your utter belief in His ways being higher. 

You go on. Keep being open, honest, vulnerable to life changing you and hurting you because you love well. God's love will hurt and cause suffering, because God's love is about sacrifice and forgiveness. This implies there is heart break. The heart of God holds compassion and care even if there is suffering or pain.

Learn to go on without a martyr attitude. Go on praising God for the highs and lows. The Lord God of Hosts will be with you. Trust He knows more than you do, because He does. He sees the beginning and the end. He is the beginning and the end. What better way to go on!