I Need or Not

A need is a curious thing. I discovered this recently when I told someone there was a great need for something{and I truly thought there was}but this certain individual didn't think there was. Like at all. Instead there was this great blank stare.

Which is super frustrating when you are working with people and you know something isn't right and you see how it could be fixed by simply taking care of the need at hand and you say so and... Nothing. I mean Nothing. In which you want to scream, " I don't ask if I don't need, see...and so I asked and so I need."

So how do you tell if its a want or a need and does it make a difference to know which struggle is going on in your heart?

I don't completely know the answer but I think the biggest difference between a want and a need is in my attitude.

 Probably when it comes right down to it, even a very specific need can be looked on as a want or as personal gain when you are working with others and if you are not the Boss. 

Ultimately, its up to the Boss to decide if he agrees with the so called "need". And the same goes for God too. However, we can only get into the specifics if we are willing to humble ourselves and make the request. After you have made the request, the best thing to do is to rest in peace. Knowing you have made your appeal, you are now ready to surrender to what God or the Boss says is truly a need.

And that is the part that is a struggle but I cannot get away from this fact...Pursue the things that make peace. Then...Be still and Know that I am God...Or your Boss.

The words to this song also help...

Audrey Assad

From the love of my own comfort
From the fear of having nothing
From a life of worldly passions
Deliver me O God

From the need to be understood
And from a need to be accepted
From the fear of being lonely
Deliver me O God
Deliver me O God

And I shall not want, no, I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness, I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness, I shall not want

From the fear of serving others
Oh, and from the fear of death or trial
And from the fear of humility
Deliver me O God
Yes, deliver me O God

And I…